Why don’t you see what Steve’s up to, said my mother. 

True, I was bored. TV was all Watergate hearings. Summer dragged, a lake being searched for bodies.

Pears in the yard, drooped on the tree, hard and bitter. 

The quarter mile to Steve’s house was nothing. Even barefoot. I scuffed the cuffs of my jeans, dusty traces of hippiedom.

As I crested the hill on Steve’s lane, his grandmother pulled up, navigating a big boat of a sedan. It was only another 100 yards, but she said, Get in.

Steve’s older brother Larry was in the front, smirking. In the back of my skull, a warning burr. 

Don’t Talk to Strangers.

Was his grandmother a stranger? Not really. Still, I paused before climbing in. Thankfully, no Nixon on the radio. Only “Shambala,” and the cool blue backseat.

I could toughen the soles of my feet, but always had that hitch in my step. Hesitation rarely served me well in future years. 

Missed rides, skipped chances.

Larry looked over his shoulder.

Now we can write the ransom note, he said.

I didn’t laugh right away. 

I hesitated.

About the Author:
Steve Saulsbury became intrigued with flash fiction during Covid 2020. Since then, his work has appeared in many online journals and several printed collections, including the 2024 London Independent Story Anthology. He lives on Maryland’s Eastern Shore.

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Rituparna Mukherjee teaches English and Communication Studies at Jogamaya
Devi College, under the University of Calcutta. She is currently pursuing Doctoral
degree in Gendered Mobilities in West African and Afro-Diasporic Literature at IIIT
Bhubaneswar. She is a published poet, short fiction writer and a passionate
translator. Her work has been published in many international magazines of repute.
She translates Bengali and Hindi fiction into English and is the chief editor at The
Antonym Magazine. Her first complete work in translation, The One-Legged, has
been published from The Antonym Collections in January 2024. She is also an ELT
trainer and an ESL author.

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The Century diner was undistinguished in food or décor or service but was predictable. John Kudzma went there Saturday mornings early to eat with a half dozen friends also in the donut holes of their lives.

Fiftyish, jobs plateaued and skidded sideways toward retirement, they reaffirmed beliefs and offered sympathy. Except for Skinny Carl, they all were overweight.

“Hey, John, how’s it hanging?” That is from Carl.

Petey was slightly more perceptive. “John, you look like you didn’t get much sleep. Stoke up on some grease.”

The corner booth, kept available for them, was a three-quarter circle. The latest arrival slid into one end or the other. John moved into the left end next to Petey, nodded to the crew, and began listening to the chatter. 

Margaret, their perennial waitress, came up and asked what they wanted. John could have ordered for everyone. Petey would have the French toast because he always did. Harald was oatmeal and juice, Carl sausage and scrambled eggs, and so on around the table. John, his stomach churning, changed his usual order of pancakes and bacon to a cheese omelet. A few eyebrows raised and John told them he hoped it would change his luck.

Margaret poured the coffee. John could barely sip it and wondered why diner coffee was always thin and brackish. The conversation resumed,  hopscotch lurching from one topic to another. The food arrived, and while the other mouths were full of food rather than words, John interjected. “I’m being fired.”

Comforting words washed over the table. “They’re not calling it that,” John added, “they refer to it as  early retirement. But they’ve made it clear that it’s not voluntary.”

The expressions of the other five men were strained. They at least occasionally wondered if the same thing would happen to them. Bromides sprouted from their worries.

“Gives you a chance to decide what to do now you’re grown up.”

“Travel, leisure, I envy you.”

“The hell with them. Get a better job and tell them about it.”

The conversation faltered. Everyone understood that once John was adrift he was less likely to remain in their group. They finished up a little sooner than usual and went their ways. John returned home. Margot was waiting for him.

“Typical that I’m forced to wait while you’re off with buddies. I still need to know how you want to split things up.”

“Margot, we don’t need to…”

Her expression was saddened. “You were never any good with confrontation. Even with the kids. Do you want to keep the house or not? If yes, I’m going to need half its value.”

John flushed. “I’d have to take out a new mortgage. And with no job, I don’t think I could get it. Why don’t we just celibately cohabitate? That’s what we’ve been doing for the last couple of years.”

“I’m out. I’ve called Ralph and Annie and explained why I’m doing it. They understand.”

“That’s it, get your side in first.” His tone was spiteful.

She shrugged. “I moved my clothes over to the Holiday Inn while you were gone. I’ve got a lawyer; you should get one on Monday. Then mine can talk with yours and we won’t have to confront each other in sorting things out.”

“Margot…?”

“No, that hurt puppy thing you do doesn’t work anymore. I’m gone.” She picked up her car keys and walked out.

John thought about a morning drink and let the thought dissipate. Whatever he was he wasn’t a lush. He checked his watch and called first Ralph and then Annie. Both were in armed neutrality, saying sympathetic words in monotones. John got a strong feeling that they supported Margot.

He put his phone away and looked around the house. Over thirty-five years they’d accumulated mounds of stuff no longer relevant. He laughed harshly. She’d done most of the picking, she could have it. He walked upstairs to his little office, took out a lined tablet and tried to make a to-do list, but never got much past the heading: Unemployed and Divorced.

He went back downstairs and mindlessly watched college football through the afternoon. He broke down twice, tears creeping down his face. Toward evening he realized that he hadn’t had lunch, and gleaned the refrigerator for enough to make another omelet. But once made his stomach was too upset to take more than a few bites. Time for that drink, he thought and found the bottle of single malt scotch he’d saved for a success that hadn’t come. He drank two healthy pours, then took the bottle and glass and walked up to the attic.

The unfinished attic was lit by a single, stark bulb. John found what he was after and sat on the plank floor. He poured another drink, then opened the gun case. The .38 Special revolver looked back at him. Supposedly once used by the Secret Service. John hadn’t cleaned it in over ten years, but it looked serviceable. Cops used to call it a wheel gun.

He released the cylinder, looked at the five slightly greenish rounds, spun the cylinder and snapped it back in. It would be messy, he knew. And he didn’t like leaving Margot and the kids with a rank mess to clean up after. John dragged a tarp out from a corner, spread it out, and kneeled on it. Under the chin, he thought, just do it.

Through the fears screaming at him, he realized that he was shaking. John cocked the gun, steadied it with two hands and jammed it in under his jawbone. Don’t think, do! The firing pin clicked as it hit a dud primer. John dropped the gun, shifted off his knees and sat on the floor, sweating. He flipped open the wheel and stared at the dented primer. 

Not meant to be, he thought, got to keep swimming in my shit. He laughed harshly. Something the diner guys would never be told about.

About the Author

Ed Ahern resumed writing after forty odd years in foreign intelligence and international sales. He’s had four hundred stories and poems published so far, and six books. Ed works the other side of writing at Bewildering Stories, where he sits on the review board and manages a posse of nine review editors. He’s also lead editor at The Scribes Micro Fiction magazine.

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